Any guesses as to what movie the Title quote came from? Well I think that it is fitting for what happened last night. I didn't get to bed until 6:15 this morning.
So I don't think that I have ever had so much drama in my life as I did last night. I'm so sick and tired of trying to work things out and help my roommates and friends. We have had a lot of problems keeping the rules of our apartment and I've tried really REALLY hard to be nice and understanding. After spring break, where I was able to talk to my family about things that have been going on, I realized that its not right for me to feel uncomfortable in my own home. So I decided that we need to start working on being better. In order to do this, I was going to enforce curfew hoping that if we followed that rule then the other problems, like boys sleeping over, might stop. I informed my roommates and my friends. I made sure that they knew that I would talk to management if it continued. Things have been pretty good this week. The boys have left right at or just a few minutes after curfew which was exciting for me because that is good progress.
This is where the story changes. Last night Alex and I went to Raine's house to watch a movie and hang out. We got home at 1:45 ish and Brian's (basically Kailey's boyfriend) car was parked across the street, so we knew he was at our house. We figured that Kailey and Brian would just be watching Psych in the living room and just didn't realize that it was past curfew. When we walked in they were not in the living room and Kailey's bedroom door was shut and the light was off. Alex and I figured that they were asleep and honestly I thought that they were trying to pull a fast one on us and that I would just be fine with him staying over.So i texted him telling him it was curfew and that he needed to go home. Honestly, I am really uncomfortable with boys staying the night. And when Brian stays the night it encourages our other roommate Christine to let her boyfriend sleepover and when ever he is around I just get a bad feeling. I also was raised in a house where boys were not allowed in my room, especially with the door shut (unless it was family). I don't really care whats going on behind the door with the light off, they could innocently be sleeping one on the floor and one on the bed, BUT it just gives a really bad impression and it makes me feel awkward. So I stuck to my guns! I felt that it wouldn't be fair for me to turn to our manager without informing Kailey. So I, with Alex's help, drafted a letter informing Kailey of the situation and what I would be doing and then I told her that it made me feel uncomfortable and that I felt that they were disregarding my requests. Requests that dealt with my safety and moral reasons. I put it in an envelope and slipped it under the door. Then I went to bed. By this point it was like 2:30 AM so I went to bed. Before I even had the chance to fall asleep I heard Kailey's bedroom door and then the front door. Alex heard it too and she said that Brian had left. She got up and went to get some water, and while she was gone I received a text from Kailey Saying that she was sorry for breaking curfew, it was an accident and then she went off talking about how why would I turn them in but not Christine. It made me upset, because I felt that she was accusing me of unfairly judging them when she was aware of my new feelings. She may not have known why, but she knew that I was going to be enforcing the rules. So I responded asking Why they were in her room if they had the whole house to themselves. Then I told her of my epiphany during spring break and how I realized I needed to have the integrity to stand up for what is right, even if it meant standing alone, even if it meant standing up to my own family, friend, or a girl I hardly know. I also told her about how it was her choice to keep or break curfew and it was my choice to talk to management or not. Then she just went off on how she is suicidal. I know that she has depression and that yeah when you are depressed you have thoughts like that BUT she only pulls that card when she wants attention! I don't take it lightly, I have and will continue to make sure that she is safe because I could never live with knowing that something happened because I didn't believe her but I feel that SOMETIMES she does it just so that people will feel bad for her, or apologize, etc.
This is where the "good" (not so good, but juicy) stuff happened. Brian texted me a 17 page text. OKAY! And this is what it said; and I quote-
(misspellings and all)
- "Fist thank you for the letter, i'm grateful that you informed me about your unfortunate decision. This message is to let you know a few things. In regards to your letter itself, in my opinion (this is my "favorite" part) as a published author and and acomplished wordsmith your letter was laughable at best. For you to even begin to think that kailey would purpously and without shame break a curfew is a truly sad testimony to your character and your understanding of mine. secondly, i feel that my rights under the 6th amendment ensure me the right to be there in person as you accuse me of this curfew violation.(not true-- that is only in the court of law or for prosecution.) If you fail to ensure my personal presence at the time you tell the landlord it may result in my taking legal action as far as suing you for heresay and slander. (how is that here-say? and as for slander... okay, no.) It would be unfortunate to face you in court because I still value our friendship and feel that a courtroom may end that. next i would like to address your letting christine break the rules on a regular basis, if you do not inform gwenaly about christines sexual activities and your own curfew and bedroom violations (that makes it sound like I'm be OOBER hypocritical when really my "bedroom violation" includes letting a boy in my room with the lights on and with Alex and/ or Kailey and or HIM in my room for a few minutes and NEVER to sleep or any kind of physical things.) Then i will again be prompted to inform her myself and take legal action. Now my own personal feelings are shame at myself, regret for kailey who has plenty to worry about already and now will spend a sleepless night before her all day shift at subway (ooh, I'm SO sorry that she wont sleep because SHE broke the rules... I know she is stressed. I live with her but I don't mean to be rude but there are thing that she could do-- like not spend time watching TV instead of doing homework until 10:30. but that is my personal opinion.) and dissapointment in you(um.. okay. RUDE!), alex and raine (why raine? he wasn't involved) for your harsh judgement and lack of faith. I will be telling these things to gwenaly tomorrow and am willing to swear before you, a judge, my parents, and the police that no sexual activities tok (?) place during the curfew violation. if this is questioned i wil be submitting my self to a full physical evaluation of myself to prove that i have been no where close to sex in my life. (can they really test a male? just asking a honest question. BUT ALSO... When did I say anything about them having sex? Oh yeah, NEVER!) on the other hand the outstanding testimony and physical evidence against christine will be clear (okay? I know that Christine has had sex, yes, in my apartment, but he really felt the need to say that? maybe i feel that way only because of what is coming...) i will also be informing christine and john john about my unfortunate decision and will be supporting the both as best i can to ensure they are fairly treated as they are not the only ones breaking the rules. (I know that they are not the only violators. I am guilty too, but there are different punishments for different offences. I think that having sex in the room is a greater offence then letting a boy come into my room for a few minutes.) thank you and goodnight. i await your reply so i can be present to face your accusation tomorrow and to admit my guilt and regret to gwenaly about the whole instance, and if needed to inform city authorities on what legal action will be taken if any. to close i feel more protective of kailey than anyone but family, and wil defend her from anyone and everyone who could cause her harm of anytype. Goodnight. (so now i'm causing her harm? okay because i think that we are good enough friends that we are able to work things out and she trusts me with her deep secrets. She is like family to me-- even when she does something that might annoy me. I'm not going to "hurt" her.)
After re-writing that I find it really funny that he starts out my saying he is a published author because you wouldn't know. I'm not trying to be rude but honestly, give me a break.
So after that, I didn't even know what to say so I said this;
- "Okay. Lets blow this extremely out of proportion and send 17 text. But because its 3:15 in the morning i will be more than willing to talk to you tomorrow."
- (he responds with;) "Lets blow this out of proportion? i'd rather not. Sorry to have woken you i assumed your phone was silent and you would receive then in the morning."
After that I was just really done and Kailey was talking more and MORE about how she felt suicidal and I suddenly had this thought of how Brian had been making her a knife and I was really hoping that he hadn't given it to her already. So I asked him because she wasn't responding. I sent him a simple text of "did you give Kailey that knife yet?" and i was bombarded with another ridiculous text;
- "Because your letter is making her feel even more suicidal then she felt when i stayed in her room with her and fell asleep on accident which led to me breaking the curfew? dont worry. i take all the blame if something happens. i should be able to stay awake or at least set an alarm for myself."
I WAS LIVID!!!! HOW DARE HE PUT ALL OF THE BLAME OF KAILEY BEING SUICIDAL ON ME! YEAH I MADE HER UPSET
BUT IF A STUPID LETTER EXPLAINING THAT I WAS OFFENDED BY THEIR ACTIONS IS GOING TO MAKE HER SUICIDAL,
SHE NEEDS TO BE ON MEDS!!!!!!!!! Even though he said he would take the blame, that doesn't change the fact that I would feel so bad. I couldn't even respond nicely, so I said
- "Okay simple question. You can't even answer simply. Never mind then."
I ended up going in to check on her and her ONLY excuse as to why she hadn't done anything was because she had to work in the morning. I'm sorry, but if you are really suicidal, it wouldn't matter if you had to work in the morning. Another reason I think that it is just to get attention.
So eventually, Kailey came into our room and talked with me and Alex. We worked things out enough that we can live together and still be friends. BUT the only thing it that she texted our manager and told her that she had broken curfew. (only to avoid me doing so) The problem is that breaking curfew isn't the only reason i wanted to talk to management.
Today, our manager called and talked to Kailey telling her that she doesn't want to deal with curfew if we can handle it as roommates, and that she did not want to talk to Brian. I feel like i still need to inform the manager as to what is going on but it might just cause more problems, but I'm to the point that I don't care.
The most annoying part of this story for me is that when Kailey got home from work she was talking to Brian and I hear her say well I'll ask Kaci. Then she hangs up and comes to talk to me. She then tells me about how Brian's brother is in town and he wants to hang out with us. Well Brian's brother Zack is awesome, and he doesn't come into town very often. I felt bad saying no but I knew that if i were to be around Brian that I would come across as a... how should I put this.... a not so nice word that starts with a b. Brat. Yeah that's the word. I decided that I needed to get out of the house and talk to my mom so i called her and took a walk around the block. About half way though my walk, I hear a truck behind me and it slows down i look over as it passes and it is Zack and Brian. well they flip around like 4 times and drive past me and then go to my apartment. I was not ready to face Brian, but weather i liked it or not, it was time. So they come in and Kailey is getting ready so it's just the 3 of us. Well then Zack goes out to his truck to bring something in and show me, so it was just me and Brian alone. It was really really awkward so I told him.
"Um... so, Brian. I think that we need to talk about what happened last night but some of the things you said were really hurtful and I'm not ready to talk about them." all he said was "umm humm." THAT WAS ALL! So I then said, "I just wanted you to know so that you don't think that I'm being rude if I don't talk to you like normal." again just a "Umm, humm. okay." Then Zack came back in and i was able to talk to him until Kailey came out and helped the awkward moment. Brian keep trying to leave and go make food. When they were leaving, Kailey asked if they would be coming back and Zack said yes but then Brian started making excuses so I'm pretty sure that he is still upset too. UG! I HATE FIGHTING! but ya know, if he is going to be the type of "friend' who is willing to take me to court for something so minimal, I don't really even want to be friends with him at all. OH well. Maybe one day we can trust each other again, but right now, I would rather have a few close and REAL friends then a lot of FAKE friends.
There is my peace. Sorry its long, but it's my journal and one day I'm going to be able to look back and see this and remember that I made it, I CAN do HARD things! The lord has blessed me and I know that what I am doing, the things that I am standing up for, they are right and I will be blessed.
OH YEAH! by the way the movie quote "drama, drama, drama." Is from How to Loose a Guy in 10 Days. LOVE THAT MOVIE! :)
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